How i found Wicca.

This may or may not go well, but i am going to send out positive energies.
I want to write a little blog, a diary around my daily life as a Wiccan. I find the path of a Wiccan very interesting and can be overwhelming as you are always learning something new. So i felt i wanted to write (i mean type) down everything i learn, maybe in the hope i help someone else or encourage someone else to come along on the path of Wicca too. Either way i can always look back at this myself and have a chuckle at myself.


I type this in the beginning of November, Samhain has been and gone now and the nights are getting darker sooner and the weather is starting to get colder. The trees outside my window have practically lost all of their leaves now and hopefully the hedgehogs are starting to hibernate.

I have been a Wiccan witch for around maybe 4 years. I Can't remember exactly how i discovered Wicca. I probably new i loved nature, was fascinated with witchcraft, was interested in religion but not organised new world religions such as Christianity, Islam and Judaism. Don't get me wrong, they do obviously have perks, pros, as people follow those religions, but they weren't for me. I wanted something that connected with me. I grew up loving nature, loving animals. I was easily amazed at even the littlest of things that other people wouldn't notice. Such as a flock of birds flying or even singular birds, i just loved to watch them fly around. I loved flowers blooming in different seasons and would pay attention when this happened, Astrology, the stars, i believed in reincarnation, i loved crystals, gemstones, palm reading, fortune telling, ghosts, the paranormal, witchcraft i loved (i grew up wanting to be a witch with powers) i didn't realise they are actually real, anything to do with magic. And yes, anyone could like these things, it doesn't have to make them Wiccan. But this interest in these things helped me to find my way to paganism and thus Wicca. I always loved the moon, it was my favourite thing in the sky, i was drawn to it, it amazed me, i was always looking for it, LOVED the moonlight. This also helped me find my way to Wicca.
I remember specifically searching for goddesses. I already knew of Egyptian goddesses, Roman, Celtic and even Greek. I loved the idea of gods AND goddesses. I decided to find a goddess that i personally felt drawn to. I found the Goddess Nyx. Beautiful, powerful, feared and independent, Nyx was the goddess of the night. She essentially created (gave birth to) Day, light, death, sleep, distress, hope, and many many more!

I felt drawn to her instantly. And from that, i wanted to know more about her, who worshipped her and everything in between. So, i googled 'Who worships the Goddess Nyx' and it came up with how she was a Greek goddess and well i looked into it more and learned that there was such a thing as paganism where most religions are polytheistic just like the Greeks. The biggest thing that interested me was they were a group of religions based on nature. I then looked through the list, druids, shamans, AND Wiccans. I clicked a link directing me to a separate page all about Wicca. A pagan witchcraft religion. My heart dropped, this sounds so perfect! i thought. From that point i researched and learnt and i grew and i have been up and down, sometimes i 'slack'. I spent several years in a on and off abusive relationship with a partner who believed they were Jewish though they didn't celebrate any Jewish traditions, prayers, anything, and also believed my religion was not real, and a bit daft. So i didn't have much opportunity to do what i wanted to do, to research and be a Wiccan. I tried to meditate sometimes to calm me, but even still.

I am out of that dark phase now, its been a year. This year has been a lot more kinder to me, and i have been able to pick up on my path a lot more. Over the years, i have managed to get material and items related to Wicca, so now i feel the urge to put a lot of dedication into my path, finally.

I will post more, maybe everyday, about what i learn and what i discover and its nice to write everything down in a different format.

But yes, not sure how to end this :) Bye and if you actually read this, thanks!